...are taking up a lot of room in my head this week. A LOT. I go to sleep thinking about them. I wake up agonizing over what I have to make my imaginary friends do. I have lived with them in my head for so long now, and soon, as much as I want this to be over with and get on with my next project, I'll have to say goodbye to them. I'm going to miss them!
I always had imaginary friends when I was a kid. I had one named Bobby. He was a cool guy. Bobby used to follow my dad around the farm. I have memories of looking out the big window in our apartment and seeing dad swaggering up the lane to the barn with invisible Bobby close behind, mimicking every step. Bobby hung around in the long grass with me, building forts and pretending to be horses. I talked to Bobby quite a bit but I don't remember what he said back to me. But he was a good hang. Really undemanding.
These friends? Not so much. They are demanding. They poke around inside my head and talk to each other. They want me to write it down. They think inside their own imaginary heads, and I'm supposed to hear it and translate it. It's an unsaid agreement. They make the noise, I make the words.
I worry that they've taken on such a life of their own that I won't be able to let them go. One in particular looks like he'll be around much longer. He is huge. He almost took over this whole story but I wouldn't let him. I can't see him fading away and I don't really want him to because he fascinates me. More than anything else, I'm amazed that I invented him.
Good thing I have real friends to keep me from going too far into my Brainworld. It can get scary in there. I have a couple of mammals in my life to keep me on track.
My cat, for example, constantly reminds me that sometimes I just have to take it easy.
And my dog? Well, my dog is good for a lot of reminders.
That squirrels are evil,
eating is great,
get comfy before a nap,
and of course,
have a sense of humour!!!!!
I also have this garden full of beauty outside my door, to remind me to stop and see things. And smell. And feel happy for it.
And so, blogfriends, I'm going to be hanging with my imaginary friends all day today until our after school riding lesson, after which I'll be begging my kids to cook supper so I can get this thing all sorted out.
It'll be done by this weekend...and then I can hang with my hooved mammals and my real-life friends as a reward!!